A sorrowful memory about not being able to take responsibility
I had a discussion with some people about the future. During the discussion with a girl, I talked about taking responsibility. I discovered that I was worried about not being able to take responsibility. My worries of not being able to take responsibility were related to helplessness, uselessness. God helped me to see an excruciating memory related to not being able to take responsibility. Early in 2001, I had a male toy poodle dog named Terry. He was mine. I loved him so much. Terry had behavior issues (soiling and destroying, etc.). I loved him but didn’t know how to help him. Terry had been sacrificed by a larger problem than his own behavior issues. It was a conflict and tension between the members of the family. I had a negative tension with my father and my mother. And my parents were in tension between them. My father got exploded one day and did a ruthless thing for the dog, which made me shudder and loathe him more. A few days after, my mom got exploded with Terry’s other beha